I am so good at putting things off..
or rather finding ways to justify not starting things because some other time is better for starting.
For example all of these goals (and this blog)...
I know that that I should start...like now, today...why not?
But then I am all like, I am tired and I am in a bad mood and work sucks and my birthday is in a few days so I should just start then...blah blah blah.
I also then feel super guilty for putting it off because it affects Joe (my boyfriend), like if I skip gym on Saturday and we go out to Tasty Burger instead then we are both not going to the gym and spending more money than we need to...
problem is going out to eat id fun...and honestly the gym isn't...plus eating out gets us out of the house and away from the roommates.
Anyways I am all messed up and shitty for not having any self control or discipline blerg!
Gah! well I guess it obvious, I have no progress to report, due to the fact that I am a shit head who is so 'effing good at putting things off...I am just going to go into why I have picked these goals I guess (maybe it will help me get motivated)(probably not)
anyways
Let's see first we have: Eat better and go to the gym 3-4 times a week,
Maybe like 75% of the time Joe and I eat pretty healthy, but we get into ruts, like last week we had pizza three nights in a row, not only is the expensive (sorta) but it is shitty for you, problem is pizza is easy, and Joe loves it! The gym gah the gym! I have a whole love hate thing with the gym, sometimes I go and it is amazing and I feel so good about going, and unlike most people I don't hate it when I am there, trick is getting there...like I can't seem to find a way to motivate myself to actually go to the gym, I am lazy! Not sure how to fix that, also I really want to get these work out DVD's (if my 19 year-old self could hear me now...laughing would happen just so many lols) It's called 'Ballet Beautiful' and I think wanting it pretty obvious...who doesn't want a ballerina body? Also I want to be able to do a split...is that weird...I don't have much faith in that one, oh anyways the issue with the workout DVD is my roomies are always around and that's awkward oh and I will most likely not actually do it ever...so there is that
What's next..?
Oh, save up money for moving...while also paying bills (like actually being an adult and paying my loan...on time?)
Yeah this is hard because spending money is fun, I hate my wardrobe and when Joe plays shows we drink...a lot.
But it's one of the most important because paying bills is necessary and we need to move!
Like NEED to move, we are going into our forth year at our place and on top of the apartment being structurally unsound, I can't stand living with people any more!
Like get this yesterday, my roommate came home from work at like 3am and fed my cat (I know it doesn't sound bad but wait), my cat is fat...and has a food schedule, because my roommate has never done this before when I got up at 6am for work I fed the cat, meaning he ate twice, not a huge deal but my roomie fed him food that wasn't his normal food, so then because my poor kitty had bad food then over ate (and some idiot put is cat box cover on wrong, I assume the same roomie) he had sick poop on the bathroom rug...here's the kicker, instead of moving the rug and texting me, he put something on the poop and folded the rug over, so I didn't even notice until later...what the fuck man...yeah so basically I can't deal with that crap anymore...no
Smoke and drink less is pretty obvious so I am not going to go into that...I already feel pretty bad about myself don't want to make it worse, ha.
Okay okay, so getting up and going to bed on time, this one is tough, I am not a morning person, at all! But I also need to make myself realize 5 extra minutes of sleep is not going to make my day any better but doing my makeup and getting coffee is (literally I can do my hair and make up in 5 minutes, I just don't then get cranky because I look like I am going to just fall down dead at any moment) I mean I am lucky if I manage to get my teeth brushed and deodorant on before leaving (so is ever one else haha). Going to bed is tricky too, because Joe like to stay up, and if there is a show on a week night for got about it! I guess this one is about resetting my internal clock and uh not hitting the snooze button.
Lastly write/ read/ draw more, not gonna lie I spend a lot of time watching Youtube videos and on Pinterest and zoning out to Honey BooBoo and all of that is wonderful but I feel I am getting stupider? more stupid? less inelegant?
Basically I think my brain might be turning into like unflavored jello, aaaand that sucks!
I also have like 4 half read books, a blog I haven't written in for a long time, and about 4 half finished cross stitches, I need to get that shit done! For reals!
So that's basically an over view of things I want to get done/ start doing/ you know be really successful at...I guess.
I also need to work on keeping my room/clothing clean (because Joe's brain is going to explode) and keeping my nails done...or not done because I am too old to be walking around with chipped nail polish for weeks.
Yup...
Wish me luck?
Anyways I am all messed up and shitty for not having any self control or discipline blerg!
Gah! well I guess it obvious, I have no progress to report, due to the fact that I am a shit head who is so 'effing good at putting things off...I am just going to go into why I have picked these goals I guess (maybe it will help me get motivated)(probably not)
anyways
Let's see first we have: Eat better and go to the gym 3-4 times a week,
Maybe like 75% of the time Joe and I eat pretty healthy, but we get into ruts, like last week we had pizza three nights in a row, not only is the expensive (sorta) but it is shitty for you, problem is pizza is easy, and Joe loves it! The gym gah the gym! I have a whole love hate thing with the gym, sometimes I go and it is amazing and I feel so good about going, and unlike most people I don't hate it when I am there, trick is getting there...like I can't seem to find a way to motivate myself to actually go to the gym, I am lazy! Not sure how to fix that, also I really want to get these work out DVD's (if my 19 year-old self could hear me now...laughing would happen just so many lols) It's called 'Ballet Beautiful' and I think wanting it pretty obvious...who doesn't want a ballerina body? Also I want to be able to do a split...is that weird...I don't have much faith in that one, oh anyways the issue with the workout DVD is my roomies are always around and that's awkward oh and I will most likely not actually do it ever...so there is that
What's next..?
Oh, save up money for moving...while also paying bills (like actually being an adult and paying my loan...on time?)
Yeah this is hard because spending money is fun, I hate my wardrobe and when Joe plays shows we drink...a lot.
But it's one of the most important because paying bills is necessary and we need to move!
Like NEED to move, we are going into our forth year at our place and on top of the apartment being structurally unsound, I can't stand living with people any more!
Like get this yesterday, my roommate came home from work at like 3am and fed my cat (I know it doesn't sound bad but wait), my cat is fat...and has a food schedule, because my roommate has never done this before when I got up at 6am for work I fed the cat, meaning he ate twice, not a huge deal but my roomie fed him food that wasn't his normal food, so then because my poor kitty had bad food then over ate (and some idiot put is cat box cover on wrong, I assume the same roomie) he had sick poop on the bathroom rug...here's the kicker, instead of moving the rug and texting me, he put something on the poop and folded the rug over, so I didn't even notice until later...what the fuck man...yeah so basically I can't deal with that crap anymore...no
Smoke and drink less is pretty obvious so I am not going to go into that...I already feel pretty bad about myself don't want to make it worse, ha.
Okay okay, so getting up and going to bed on time, this one is tough, I am not a morning person, at all! But I also need to make myself realize 5 extra minutes of sleep is not going to make my day any better but doing my makeup and getting coffee is (literally I can do my hair and make up in 5 minutes, I just don't then get cranky because I look like I am going to just fall down dead at any moment) I mean I am lucky if I manage to get my teeth brushed and deodorant on before leaving (so is ever one else haha). Going to bed is tricky too, because Joe like to stay up, and if there is a show on a week night for got about it! I guess this one is about resetting my internal clock and uh not hitting the snooze button.
Lastly write/ read/ draw more, not gonna lie I spend a lot of time watching Youtube videos and on Pinterest and zoning out to Honey BooBoo and all of that is wonderful but I feel I am getting stupider? more stupid? less inelegant?
Basically I think my brain might be turning into like unflavored jello, aaaand that sucks!
I also have like 4 half read books, a blog I haven't written in for a long time, and about 4 half finished cross stitches, I need to get that shit done! For reals!
So that's basically an over view of things I want to get done/ start doing/ you know be really successful at...I guess.
I also need to work on keeping my room/clothing clean (because Joe's brain is going to explode) and keeping my nails done...or not done because I am too old to be walking around with chipped nail polish for weeks.
Yup...
Wish me luck?
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