There's an App for That

There is literally an iPhone app for each one of my goals, don’t believe me?

Be up at 5:30 (alarm clock)
Yoga (Yoga Free: Poses & Classes)
Pack Lunches (FoodMate: A Personal Meal Decision Maker)
Drink more water (Daily Water Free: Water Reminder)
Quit smoking (LiveStrong: My Quit)
Stop drinking Starbucks (NoGo)
Spend less money (Pocket Expense: Personal Finance)

Now what does that mean?  It sounds like a fabulous idea to have your phone do all the legwork but it’s just not the reality.  I’ve been using the LiveStrong MyQuit app, at first, hoping it would be an easy way to connect with other quitters (ha) which it is.  They have a lovely community who is super supportive and give you rewards points for achieving certain milestones that can be redeemed for gift cards, etc, but it does not in any way make quitting any “easier” like I’d hoped…obviously.  While you’re having a craving it takes 3 minutes just to get into the app, check in, log your craving, accept your reward and by that point I either a. am so overwhelmed with all the steps that the craving is worse or b. it takes so long the craving passed all-together.  I guess I’ll aim for the latter.

Now, I digress, what I really lack is good ol’ fashioned determination.  How can I expect to use these modern day tools if I have zero ambition or focus to accomplish these goals?  I can’t.  How do I regain the determination I once had?  Quite frankly, I have no idea.  Everyone keeps telling me to write down my reasons over and over until they are engraved in my brain and basically at that point I am guilting myself into achievement.  Sounds depressing, right?  Yeah, that’s because it is, there has to be some way to be HAPPY about all of these things.

I am erasing all my goals, just for a minute, and replacing all of them with simply: Be Happy.  How can I expect to nix smoking and Starbucks and gain lunches, water, yoga and money if I am doing it miserably?  I’ve convinced myself, over time, that living lazily and unhealthy will make me a happy person.  Quite clearly, it has not.  I feel that on my journey to becoming a happy person, I will quit smoking, start working out, sleep better, spend less and consumer healthier foods.  I need to remember that my mind and body are connected, when my mind is unhappy so will my body.  When my body is unhappy, so is my mind.

 

Unhappy people accomplish nothing, I want to look at my life and be proud of it, not hide certain things just because I know they are bad and embarrassing.  I want to be free.

Be Happy.

Holly

 

"Never ever apologize for something that makes you happy."