Summer hardly means what it used to...
when you are young summer is about time off and freedom and doing fun shit
(or in the case of me and my lovely sister watching Grease over and over and over)
But somehow I always trick myself into thinking that it still actually does mean all of that junk, and I know I am not the only one my roomies and I sit around all winter coming up with all this fun cool shit we are going to do in the summer...and 90% of it we never do!
In reality summer is just as busy as the rest of the year actually more busy than the rest of the year, there are way more social obligations in the summer, between holidays and cookouts and shows and birthdays.
Basically summer meas getting really off track with any routine you might have, working just as much and being really broke all while sweating!
Don't get me wrong I did have fun this summer, I enjoy all the social shit, and we got to take some weekend trips and all of that is fun...but it kills routine
(am I being redundant?)
Where I am going with this is...
My birthday marks the end of summer (I know summer isn't officially over yet, shut up!) so it seemed like the perfect opportunity to start back up with routines, and what not.
One last long weekend to eat a shit ton of pizza and not work out and dink and smoke unreasonable amounts then Tuesday back to being good!
You can safely assume it did not go that way.
-----Skip ahead 2 weeks-----
I apparently also have a problem finishing what I start...or maybe it's not 2 problems its one...Because basically making lists and, goals, and agendas, and budgets and not following through with them is not finishing something you started...right?!
How do you fix that?
Pretty face Holly just wrote about being happy and about how maybe if you focus on being happy all the other things will fall into place...because in the long run not smoking and being healthy will make you happier and not having to worry about money will make you happier...
I think what I think is hard a bout that for me (and example of the differences in our lives) is that going out to eat makes me happy...like really going out every night makes me really happy and as hard as waking up in the morning is staying up late makes me happy, and if I don't buy the shoes and save the money in 2 years maybe Joe and I can take a vacation but that's so far away and the shoes are here now...how do I make myself see the importance in long term happy vs. instant gratification?
Life is hard!
And I am not sure if any of this makes sense or if it's weird rambling about failing and being a super baby about thinkgs and an addiction to making to-do lists (really I have notebooks full of lists...)
Whatever...the thing I (we) started to motivate me (us) has become another thing to ignore because I am happy being a shit head and don't want to be a grown up...(also I have a good story about avoidance but I'll save it...Yaay)...
Peace out
-----Skip ahead 2 weeks-----
I apparently also have a problem finishing what I start...or maybe it's not 2 problems its one...Because basically making lists and, goals, and agendas, and budgets and not following through with them is not finishing something you started...right?!
How do you fix that?
Pretty face Holly just wrote about being happy and about how maybe if you focus on being happy all the other things will fall into place...because in the long run not smoking and being healthy will make you happier and not having to worry about money will make you happier...
I think what I think is hard a bout that for me (and example of the differences in our lives) is that going out to eat makes me happy...like really going out every night makes me really happy and as hard as waking up in the morning is staying up late makes me happy, and if I don't buy the shoes and save the money in 2 years maybe Joe and I can take a vacation but that's so far away and the shoes are here now...how do I make myself see the importance in long term happy vs. instant gratification?
Life is hard!
And I am not sure if any of this makes sense or if it's weird rambling about failing and being a super baby about thinkgs and an addiction to making to-do lists (really I have notebooks full of lists...)
Whatever...the thing I (we) started to motivate me (us) has become another thing to ignore because I am happy being a shit head and don't want to be a grown up...(also I have a good story about avoidance but I'll save it...Yaay)...
Peace out
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