No Goals.

The goal blog has turned into a "let-me-justify-why-I-gave-up-on-my-goals" blog instead.  I feel like there is always something and I can't catch a break.  I wish I could say that's how I feel 'lately' but I actually feel that way the majority of the time.  It’s not really a great way to live, maybe there is truth to the sayings

‘optimism is key’

‘keep your head up’

‘things will get better’

‘you have fall down to get back up’

Yeah I’m sure it’s good for moral but does it really make a difference?  I don’t WANT to be so negative, maybe I’m just a Debbie Downer by nature, wired that way or depressed.  How do I get to the root of that and really change it?  Not just for a day or a week or a month but how do I make positive living a reality?  A permanent reality?

I feel like there is a constant anchor holding me down, whether it be financial burdens, a dicey relationship, envy, etc.  I don’t know HOW to let those things go.  I can say I’m going to, but is there actually a way to really do it?  Is it some magical made up state of being that doesn’t really truly exist? 

It feels that way.

I guess, to start, I need to remember this;

Others will ALWAYS have things and lifestyles that I never will and that’s ok.

I can blame literally everyone, but it’s nobody’s fault but my own that I feel the way I do.

I don’t ever need the approval of anyone but myself because what other’s think or say about me does not make a difference.

My number one priority for my family, friends and myself should be love and nothing less.

I will never gain anything by dwelling in the bad.

HP

PS It does feel that so many problems could be alleviated if we were not constantly in a panic about money though.